||[Aug. 2nd, 2005|08:31 pm]
A Cut Above - Beautiful Crimson
|||||Slipknot - (sic)||]|
Hi, I'm 15, in year 10 and I live in Australia. I just joined livejournal and this community, just seemed to appeal to me to join, makes me feel less alone, knowing that I can talk to other people who are in the same position as me, that have the same thoughts that run through their head, and if not the same, then similar.
My ex best friend cut, but that was because for some reason she wanted to be just like me, she copied everything and took anything she could of mine, including my then boyfriend, but I'm not entirely angry at her because he went along with it aswell.
I've cut for nearly a year now, and I used to scratch myself until I bled for about 6 months before that. I started off with tiny cuts, just so no one would see, because all I had were spaghetti bangles and a razor that the blade was stuck in. Then I went on to cutting deeper because I aquired a wristband and my razor broke and the actual blade was mine. I used to do it all along down my arms for months, before school, at night, I even had a razor and a folded tissue in my wristband, because it had a hole on the inside, that I would position in class so when I moved it would cut me, and the tissue would mean that my wristband would stay clean, so no blood would show.
Then my parents found out, because when we went on holiday to the beach, I refused to take off my wristband. So i stopped cutting on my wrists and started on my thighs, now I can't wear a skirt that goes just above my knees because I slashed words into my thigh.
My cutting has nothing to do with my family, but they did bring me up to have an aggressive nature, so i suppose that may explain some things.
I'll stop babbling now, read this if you want, i knwo i'll read the other posts.